:(

i want u:'(

U GONE:(

i ask u to leave coz im so damn hurt by u.

than u ask me to be ur fren.

but i juz cant simpy turn u to be my fren.

coz i never want to make u as my fren

u r my special 1.eventho i ask u to leave.

now u gonebcoz i ask to.

its fair 4 us coz both feel d same.

but its pain..i dunno if i can bear it or not.

i try to make myself busy..but it never works.

coz u r rigidly in my heart n mind.

what we had done to both of us surely not fair to both of us.

hurmm:(

eventho i threw u away frm my life,but my heart remain for u:(

do u miss me?

i do miss u badly..

be strong farah:)

urm:(

knp ak mcm nie?ak x ske bila ak rse trancam atau rasa dia akn di ambil orang.hurmm.

n die x kan fhm pon aper yg ak rsa.

mgkin sme bnda nmpk kecil di mata die..

tp once ak da rse mcm 2 ak x sggup nk sakit..

end up nyer ak pergi dr hdup die..

wlaupon spptnya ak btahan dan melawan.

xpelah..nk wat mcm mne..

im too complicated.

only i noe bout myself.

only i can make my self satisfy..

i dun want to be hurt..

but wateva decision i made it still hurt.

either left or stay it still d same..

if left i lose him.

if stay i will feel dat way..

n y he dun even think before he did sumthing..

dun he now if sum1 will hurt bcoz of wat he had done.

dun he now hw scare i am to lose him..

i think its ok to move on rather than stay n noe he will be taken by sum1 later.

die ckp kebahagiann dalm perpisahan.

tp x pernah pon 1 perpisahan membawa kebahagiaan kepada ak..

i love u

i hold myself from saying i love u..

n do u noe how hard it is?

so hard till it can kill me from inside:(

PAIN!..dats all i can feel rite now..:(

Thanks to ALLAH 4 making things getting easier for me..eventho not in my academic but my life so much meangful n happier for me each day..

i hve BUYA bsides me whenver i need them.

i hve my lovely sister which alwys loving me:P

n i also hve diz guy which love me truly no matter what had happen.

AFIQ FADHLY

n i hve all my frens here n at subang which always remember me.loving me.making me happy every each day..

i thank to u all..

coz u make my life more better than past..

n i do more appreciate diz life now..

n i noe i can make it even better later:)

*alhamdullilah:)..now my life full of joy:)

perlu ker ko dgr aper yg org ckp ttg ko frh..:( :'(..ko cume buat hidup ko lbih mrana..:(

sick

hurmm..im sufferrng bcoz of my own dcision..

dats not wat i wnt..i love u syg.i do love u soo much..if my heart can say out loud,it will say i love u syg whenever my mouth lie .i dun wnt u to go..i dun wnt u too leave..i never meant to throw u out of my life..but everythng dat had happen is really make me sad..i wish u r near..i really wish..

when i said i dun wnt to b ur fren.its nt bcoz i dun wnt u in my life anymre..but i juz cant..u r sum1 dat i share my dream..u r sum1 dat i love deeply n madly..i wnt to be ur special.but i juz cant..cant u undrstnd?y u must blame me for other reason..bcoz of status n whtever..its nt dat.n im nt dat type of person..

Only ALLAH noe wat lies deep inside..only ALLAH noe hw disaster my life is without u anymre..im crying inside..pple seeing me laugh n happy..but inside its bleeding..not ur fault..but its my fault threwing u away..i nver meant to do dat..if u r in my shoes u will noe wat had ppple done 2 me..its very pain 2 accept.its very pain to feel..until 1 time u feel so heartless..n ur lifeso meangless..

im alone.:(..

pain:(

i dun wnt to leave,but i already leave u..

thats not wat i want,but d pain i receive frm others is really killing me..

diz is mentally torture..i do love u..i do miss u..i do heart u..

we do hve d same dream..we do want to achieve dat dream..

but i already destroy it..

hurmmm

y diz pain so hurting me..wats d bez for me i also dunno..

stay or leave it still d same..

if im stay im pain n if i leave i also feel dat way too..

DUGAAN APAKAH INI..

i xkuat..i x tabah..

u blh bg semangat sume.tp i kat sni hancur..hati i hancur..

u ade dengan i,org cume nmpk bnyk klemahan i..

org ckp i x sdar dri..

u tell me mcm mne i nk handle sme 2..

u thu ker im in a great pain sblom2 nie lg..u penah rse aper yg i rse skrng?

SAKIT!SAKIT!SAKIT!..

i better live alone.

org rse i dun deserve to be happy.

then let it be that way!:(

i xthu i mrh atau sedih..tp smenya bcmpur baur..

i mrh dgn dri sndri sbb i x kuat..

i sdey sbb i x mampu ade untuk u lg..

dan smpai bila u nk bnda nie jd dkt i:(

alonelonelyloner:(

i dun xpect pple will read my blog..so here im gonna all out wat i felt inside..:(

its nt hepy to hve sum1 dat doesnt suit me well..i've been thru so much depressng lately coz mny girls like her n in love with her n in opposite meang they're trying to tell me dat i dun deserve for him..i cry a lot coz i think i deserve him but everytime he try to put me up bck i felt like it doesnt worth anythng..coz i felt hurt only.its hurt when u c other girl which is very beautful compre to me fall in love with him,i think she desrve him..but its ok 4 me.

be wit him juz making evrybody see my lackness boldly..(APE NIE).broken..

hurmm..tahlah..sebak sgt..hr2 rse bnda yg sme..sdey..buat malu mcm x sdar dri jer yg ak nie mmg x ssuai dgn die..DEYM!y so stupid frh..Y!HURMMM.he's trying to understnd but he cant actlly bcoz he;s not in my shoes..hurmm

everytime my fren see him in my phne,scare x lgsg they're trying to tell yg ak mmg x sesuai dgn die..hurmm..my heart broke.hurt.bleeding.

YA ALLAH.berilah ak ktenangan hati yg bkekala.KAU cekalkan hati ak kau kuatkan lah semangat ak supaya ak mampu untuk meneruskan hidupku..andai peprpisahan yg tbaik untuk ak dan dia,ak terima semuanya.kerana ak cume mrase kesakitan lebih dr kegembiraan.Ya ALLAH.sesungguhnya ak tidak kuat untuk mgharungi ujian mu.kegmbiraan ak dtg dr MU.